AM I DIVERGENT?

I've been to the movies a rare treat. The Movie was Divergent It was about a post war world. Where there were several factions. One faction was trying to take over by taking away free will of another faction to use them as weapons. They spread rumors about the faction they wanted to get rid of. Making it look like they knew what was best for everyone.In the end they were able to take over through the criminal act of usurping the minds of another faction This faction was the protection and police of their city.  They intended the murder of another faction. Is this not what is happening  right now?
The next question is Am I Divergent? In a cast or Faction system, there are those no body wants. For one reason or another they are unacceptable to everyone. And looking at our world today, I see the darkness of a faction system. We are in a cast or faction system. I am after all one who after lots of experiences, sees clearly the things the richest are doing to the rest of humanity. They sicken me! They can call me "wrong", When they dress themselves in crappy fantasy garb and go to "COS PLAY," or trick children into the playing of violent video games with all these things that make the game "MORE REAL." Then when the subliminals make the same said children killers, it gives these scumballed elites more fodder for reality TV shows, like The nightmare next door, deadly wives, Who the Bleep did I marry, and Killer Kids. I look at the TV listings with  major Disgust. Think about the movies at a video rental store who can name the biggest genres? War, Slasher, Horror,& Porn
Yeah I'm the dangerous & deviant because I refuse their world. Has anyone noticed the big ww2 shows on H2, Who are they trying to get equated to hitler the islamic leaders or maybe putin? I can't even guess.
 I am avoiding these shows like U.S.A.'s new shit com and that new reality show "Chisler."
The guy is an asshole bastard who's flaunting his wealth. I know I am not going to be like him. T.V. is really good at showing you who not to be. Their crappy shows that flaunt wealth makes targets for the masses when war does come.
 Now I know that I'm not Like them. I will  always refuse them, For it was they who with their abuseiveness, and need to segregate people denied me first.  Remember I carry two lables on my name. One I have learned not to see so much the other reminds me not to gossip about others and to hate segregation.  I know To refuse the world factions or cast system is deviant. I am Pagan, in a Christian, Jew, and Muslim dominated world. Isn't that exactly what Divergent is The ones that are right with that little something wrong, that puts them beyond the reach of others? I have always been seperate from them. I'm not part of their worlds, I'm free of all that and I've escaped the cultist way of life I was born into with  the B.F.D.C. I have never belonged to the world I was born to because it never accepted me. So the answer to the Question is Yes I am divergent. Does that bother you? of course it does even other witches find me disturbing. Things they do that I don't Things I do that they don't It's all divergent! I am not like anyone else but maybe that is why you should join me. Always right with just the right amount of wrong. Divergent, Wicca, pagan, and Proud of it.  But truly THe question is no longer Am I divergent It's are you divergent?

Random Thoughts

[3:17:14]
Wow the Bible rules Actually are dangerous programming They actually spoke an invocation and a curse. I skipped the curse part. Even in wicca we are told don't do this.
But I begin to see this as dangerous programming when the enemy is actually summoning darker forces in the guise of entertainment. The show Sleepy Hollow, is nowand forever on my boycott list as I do not want a demonic entity in my home yet again. Especially not a prince of hell. Have a care and do not let such beings in especially not letting the enemy use me to bring about the summoning of a demon. I never thought that they would do something like this and while I agree that when a person of the Craft does harm they should pay the price.

 How ever every one should know that you should never call a demon by their name it brings them out opening the door to horrors beyond imagining.
Calling a demon by name it's how they are summoned. The demon summoning means the Demon's name is repeated a certain number of times. That is flirting with disaster.
 A demon, will turn on you and this is not worth the risk.
 But this is the second time that they Have attempted to summon this particular demon.
 Do the elites, Now seeing the end of their power is upon them, summon up such dreadful beings and then deify them?  Then maybe we Witches should indeed be watchful. The elites are religion bashing, but the summoning of evil this makes the elites extremely dangerous to everyone. WE must protect ourselves and the rest of the world from the entities they call up so casually and  flagrantly.

A message to the Witches of Crimea, I know Ukraine is not happy about the changes to the border with Russia But why be Russians Why not be a fully free and independant buffer state protecting Ukraine and Russia from each other. An International Park of sorts? Where culture and tourism can thrive? The same with Jerusalem holy to the big three religions why not declare the whole city a world heritage site and Make it Property of everyone? An inclusive community.
   

3-11-14

[3-11-14]
I was dreaming Last night I got my kit together and went out and found gold and topaz. I brought home a pretty good batch of it. Mary is such a dweeb she didn't think I could do it. But when I came home with a jar full she got mad and joined me wanting to figure out how I did that. First I hunted the place. then I really got to work. I had like four jars then five then six the box filled up  But it was all me the bags filled up but it was all me.
But come time to buy our place, mary had nothing  It was all sith bitch's name on the title I had nothing. But I was smart and an adverse possession affidavit on the first day for half the land. When I recorded the affidavit I got adverse possession. on half the land
 But that I had to declare adverse possession at all was a loss. The fact that I'd have lost my home at seventy three years old was to me a sickening thought. But the  way things worked out I still had it. Leaving mary's
 half to the bankstards I still had the river. and that was to me worth far more as I  was working to keep my place safe for me to live on.  The cheating christian people think they can disobey every law so long as they can make a death bed confession before they die that makes it all o.k. That they can do this to me was totally revolting. I'd figured out that Mary was the one who was cheating that I had paid the entire mortgage while she lived high on the hog the B&b part of the land where I had slaved  for her and tried to keep up my own place too until a year later when I just had to tell her "Hey I have my own business to run." I sold to the manager so they could have a home. and that manager stabbed me in the back. My own half I had to defend from her .  So I post dated an affidavit to the date we moved into the B&B, and declared adverse possession over that half the land. After the manager tried to move me out, and lost,  because I declared adverse possession over half the land, Just to have a home. and won, because Mary never changed the checking account thus leaving me holding the bag for taxes and other none such stuff like the taxes. The Law said I owned half the land legally and outright. Even the bank had no idea that I had filed the affidavit of adverse possession.  But they let me have it thinking I'd lose it in taxes. but some how I always made the payments on time.  And no one ever knew I was that good. The fact that I never missed on Taxes, and I was making the money to create my own accounts via my barn and the good work I did Just tiffed off the manager of the B&B. She quit and moved out wrecking the B&b in her wake and over booking the place. to Ruin the reputation Mary had started But I took over refunded the over priced  bookings and told them a sudden storm left the B&B damaged and  that we were in the middle of repairs. They accepted this and soon I reopened the B&B and hired the new staff  This gave me all the land and the work of running it.  But I finally found someone who could run both businesses. and retired richer than  any one alone  has a right to be I guess.  I  was in such a habit of saving stashing and banking for investment that I actually had taught others how to do it too. I Finally passed and later returned still knowing how to use money wisely  I lived an easy life. the second time around [end ]  
  

3-6-14

 I've been thinking very hard about this I'm not sure that I really ever  wanted, to think about it all that much but  Since we got talked into coming back to Texas , All we have seen here is lack and want, from our family and our prevailing thoughts have been about just that sort of  short fall took everything we made and then some to pull our remaining family mom and mary from foreclosure. I felt that I really needed to look at why I was able to come back so easily. And why I decided to come back. I came back because I needed to lord my power over someone who truly deserved my scorn  I.E. my family. (Being honest hurts)  but remember they branded me as an outcast as a child, because of the day I was born on and the fact I can't eat certain foods. This made me hate religion. and   scornful of the church. Add to that I was never part of the "in" crowd  and you see why I hated them too. I saved the ranch in Star by buying the note and  declaring it paid in full, as much as I hated the place I kept it. because it was my brother's inheritance . I couldn't let him have it. So buying the note I stole it from him and then declared adverse possession over it to keep him from getting it by inheritance.  All this cost me financially because I am black listed in this area. Did I do it for spite? Yes, I did!  Have I any regrets?  Not really I'm proud of what I did for the most part and none of it broke the law.  When I did these things I felt like I won another prize. because I took away from those who hurt me and gave other nephilites a place to hide from the B.F.D.C.  Who have fallen way out of favor with the religious  cult crowds. The brand mark on my arm is just as if I have a prison tat, or a tribal marking.  I never thought anything I did made any difference to any one else. I was cleaning out a closet recently.  
  When I found out that my mom kept my show ribbons, and other stuff I thought my dad had gotten rid of .  I realized I had one parent on my side. I thought my dad would have burned all my show ribbons and trophies from school because it made my brother, look like an idiot. Remember I am  a Nephilite, So I had to become a winner over my siblings because it gave me an advantage I felt  better about myself. I was the big champion despite the two labels on my name. one from the B.F.D.C. the other from the school system. Neither complimentary, neither made me feel good. I didn't want to own either label.  So I had to be better than any of the other kids. I competed  in everything. from chores to grades to sports and what ever else.    I won intellectual awards as well as the  horse shows and barrel races away from that little punk here  or the brat  over there. in a steady and constant  show of  how little status their high birth really was. I hate men because of the way boys hated me. There fore I couldn't let any one have a state title or any other championship I could prevent them  from getting. everything was out of hate for boys and by default men. Even the gang   had to go because they were brats and I hated them. They killed my horse so I killed their gang, effectually by getting the law after them.
It made me look like an angel, to show how bad the other brats were. WOW! Big admissions, I guess I needed to get this stuff  into the open and be honest with my self.  But I never really thought about why I came  back and began Helping my family until now,  because I didn't want to face the real reasons behind it.
funny how when you begin looking for your center you have to wade through the muck and mire of your life But that's how it is.  I came back to say I beat you again bro. that was the only reason.  WOW!   I never saw my self as dark before, but I find out that yeah I have a very nasty dark side.  This means a lot of things must be rethought. How should I handle this?   I don't think I should base any rush decisions on the basis of  a few scraps of cloth or a few trophies, but I had such a hate complex in my past it has to be affecting my life now, with all the consequences I've gotten.                  

The money situation and the ballot

[3-4-14]

 The way things are going mary thinks she has the upper hand in  the money game. She is trying to say "We haven't got anything to improve our future with." So stashing, saving, Investing, and waiting for the needed escape date, has been my plan. The taurus types are extremely selfish people. They fear for the short  term things the momentary, and never look for the long term. They never make long term goals, and they die broke and alone. Although
When ever she really wants something she can get it. But let me want to do something to help us further down the road, and there's no money for it. That's the thing about mary, She doesn't have the brains to save herself or any one else's future financially, and because of her the money is never available, and never going to be available, to save the future for us. It's just never going to be there. I don't want it this way, but It's the only thing I can do. So I'm doing the only thing I can. T+S+B+I= F.I.X.O! This is again probably the only route to getting at least my own future that I know. The small amounts I used to begin treasure chest  back in the day foundlings and other sources built the little I had. well Those sources are no more because of Check cards. Stashing becomes my only chance. Stashed cash goes to the bank,is saved to get invested, and then I get a new choice. I was doing great before I move in here So was Anne, Why did I ever come back here? I had the B.F.D.C. hassles Sure but with all the  cross dragger bashing in the media  they couldn't find any thing to use that  we couldn't break down. They couldn't get a judge anywhere that saw things their way so how did I end up back in Temple letting my family rob me again?  Worse yet the current state of affairs that the rest of you are in I went to vote "No confidence " in the senate races. But there was no" write in slots" on the ballot and half the candidates in the voters guide were not on the ballot meaning these were the elite approved candidates, There fore I turned in a blank ballot I did not vote for any one at all. This is the way I say NO!